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ELLE: Were you a sexually precocious kid?
SEAN COMBS: I was in pursuit of female attention from when I was probably four or five. It started with my mother’s friends putting me to sleep on their laps. But I wasn’t really asleep; I was enjoying the way it felt to lay on a pair of beautiful breasts.
ELLE: And how did your first time go?
SC: Great, but I’d had a lot of practice from watching this show on cable called Midnight Blue, where they had actual scenes from pornos. Me and Midnight Blue had a Thursday night at one o’clock date—I’d make sure my mother was asleep, take a shower, lock the door, put on cologne.
ELLE: Your dad was shot to death when you were only three. Who taught you how to behave with women?
SC: A couple years ago, my psychologist came to the conclusion that this is one of the big problems I have as far as maturing in a relationship. After my father got killed, my mother said, “I’m never getting married again. I don’t want men around my children.” So I’ve never actually been able to witness a husband and wife’s love. Sometimes when I see it with my friends, I just find myself staring like a child, because I’ve never actually seen it before. It’s one of the sad parts of my life.
ELLE: So what kind of behavior does this bring out in relationships?
SC: When a relationship gets to a certain point, I probably get scared and become a little self-destructive.
SC: Yeah.
ELLE: If you get caught cheating red-handed, what’s the best response?
SC: Cry. It might not work, but it at least shows that you care. Goddamn, this is a deep interview. You didn’t ask Will Smith none of this shit!
ELLE: But we’re making such valuable progress! Just tell me: Are the tears real?
SC: Yeah, it hurts me. One of my weaknesses is that I actually have a conscience.
